And we saw it!!!
Went to the doctor for our first checkup... doctor O'Kane did the usual stuff (blood test, urine test, etc). Apparently she wasn't planning on doing an ultrasound but I thought that was the plan all along. Frankly today was the day we had been looking forward to and that I was focused on to keep me going... So when she said typically the 12 week ultrasound is the first one but that is a month away - I started crying and said that the majority of doctors now make the 8 week standard to check viability, especially after a miscarriage. I think she saw that at a minimum for my mental sanity I needed an ultrasound to show me everything was ok and my baby had a heartbeat - so she referred me for an ultrasound. We eeked into an ultrasound appointment at the roosevelt clinic a couple hours later. here is how it went down...
They called us into the room - we were soooo nervous! Niels held my hand and was so supportive. The lady started the ultrasound and she poked and prodded around and after just a couple seconds found the gestational sac and the embryo - thank god! And she says, "there is your baby". I swear heart was beating out of my chest. Both Niels and I see on the screen a little flicker but don't say anything, just hold each others hands really tight. And she says, "and that flicker there, that is your baby's heartbeat." And I let out the sob of a lifetime! Niels smiled, squeezed my hand, and teared up as I cried. The best sight in the whole world!
Now Niels is laughing because Dre and I keep calling the little one "flicker" - which is NOT the best nickname for a little baby in Dutch. If you don't know what it means, google "flikker" or look it up in the urban dictionary.
